wth is wrong with everything?
everytime when i finally thought that i get over something, i actually dont.

when i thought i'm getting happier, actually the feeling's still there.
i still feel damn sad and yet, i've to tell myself to smile.

yet, all the sacarsism come in like never before.
all the emotions i tried hiding for the past one week came pouring out... i dont actually feel like crying at all, or rather.. i dont actually allow myself to cry at all for the past month. be it work or how i feel..

everytime i feel like tearing, i'll stop myself. i'll think of happier things and yet, today... i cant seem to think of anything that happy to cheer myself up anymore. when ivan tell me on msn.. "go cry, i give you 5mins.." i rly did cry. he didnt actually know i'm alrdy sad la. lol.

"倔强的我还是不肯让泪水滑落...
难过不一定要哭,对吗?"

但这一次,倔强的我还是哭了...
我找不到任何不让眼泪落下的借口了... 因为我真得太在乎了...